Questioner: I suffer from anxiety disorder and tend to resist stress and worry. Is it possible to surrender and let go, so that I can live joyfully and in peace?
Sadhguru: If your mind took instructions from your, would you create anxiety? No. So, don’t look for answers elsewhere, elsewhere, elsewhere. It is just that your own physiology and your psychological patterns not taking instructions from you. So, you – you said so many things – I try, you know whatever these big words are floating all over California particularly. About surrendering to it, about letting it go, about – not for one person has such a thing worked, ever, ever. Has it? I’m asking you.
If your mind took instructions from your, would you create anxiety? No
You have anxiety – try to let it go. Does it go? Even a flu, damn flu doesn’t go. Yes or No? Even a simple ‘cold’ does not go. You say ‘go’, does it go? So, let’s not get into this fanciful states of surrendering. These are all words thrown around. Nobody knows what is surrender. Because, when it happens, you will not know it has happened. You can’t do it – I surrender – how is that possible?
So, leaving those things, essentially as I said, you have not read the users manual, of how this works. We need to pay attention to this. The system is made in such a way, that if you hold your hand like this, it will work one way. If you do this, it will work another way. If you do like that, it will work another way. It’s a phenomenal process. If it was a simple thing, we could have just beaten it into shape with hammer and anvil, ok. It’s too sophisticated. It’s a phenomenally complex machine. One needs to pay a certain level of attention to be able to use it for what it is designed for. Otherwise it will get itself messed up.
It’s [human system] a phenomenally complex machine. One needs to pay a certain level of attention to be able to use it for what it is designed for
Now, there may be many factors. There may be genetic factors, there maybe sociological factors, there maybe growing up issues, you know – various things. But, do not ascribe your problems to any of those things. The important thing is just this – you are not able to have your mind the way you want it – that’s the only problem you have, isn’t it? The moment you ascribe it – I’m like this because my father was like that, I’m like this because my grandfather’s genetics were not ok – you are finished. Because we can’t change those guys now. Yes! You can’t choose a different father, or a different grandfather now, it’s over.
But, you can transform ‘this’. You must understand, still – it doesn’t matter you have anxiety disorder, still if you put a piece of carrot, there is an intelligence here, which can transform a carrot into a human being. That means, everyday a new body is being manufactured within you, isn’t it? In parts, a new human being is manufactured every day. When the very source of creation is functioning within you, and a new human being is being constantly created, if you take little charge of that, you can create an entire new physiological and psychological process.
This happened to us sometime ago. Last year, we were trekking in Tibet. I was in a tent. I was doing some work. And, another person was cutting an apple. You know one of these porcelain knives these days – so, the other person around says to this person, it’s a very sharp knife, be careful. It irritates me a bit – I look like this, because he is a grown man. Child – it’s different. Then we have to watch how he uses the knife. It’s a full grown man. And, a knife is supposed to be sharp. If it’s not sharp, why do you call it a knife!
So, I ignored it, and continued to work. Another 2 minutes, she says again, it’s a very sharp knife, be careful. I said, c’mon, he is a full grown man, leave him alone. He knows how to use this knife. This stupid knife, can’t he handle! Some earth moving machinery, or space craft or something that he doesn’t know how to handle. It’s a knife. She says, no Sadhguru, it’s a very sharp knife. And, I continue what I’m doing. In another 2 mins, she whispers to him – please be careful, very sharp. And, in another 2 mins, he cuts his finger! Then I give up. Ok. This is all that’s happening.
You have an intellect for which you don’t have a stable enough platform
This is all that’s happening with life. You have an intellect for which you don’t have a stable enough platform. Or in other words, you have a sharp knife – oh! I’m sorry – a very sharp knife… A very sharp knife in your hand, but your hand is not steady. Please see – it’s your own mind which is causing all this pain, isn’t it? Yes or no? So, you have a very sharp knife, the sharper it is, the more you cut yourself. We don’t have to blunt the knife. We just have to have a steady hand, isn’t it? Nothing has been done about that.
People are trying to blunt the knife, with all this sedatives, and nonsense what you take, is to blunt the knife. Blunting the knife is not the answer. Because if you lower the possibilities of who you are, everything will be ok. If we remove half of your brain, you will be quite peaceful. Because it takes some brain to cause anxiety. If we really remove half of your brain, you will be quite peaceful, and you may even be happy, actually. Nothing bother you, you’re ok. Alright! But that’s not what we are looking for.
What a human being is looking for is to become limitless, in some way. And, if this has to happen, you have to create a steady platform. Knife need not be taken away. Knife need not be blunted. Only thing is hand needs to be steady, isn’t it? No process to do that.
What Inner Engineering means, what Yoga means, is just this – when I say Yoga, don’t – being in California – don’t imagine all those impossible postures. Yoga does not mean postures. Yoga means union, ok. The word yoga, literally means union.
This is the first form of union. Your right and left, this is called as Pingala, and Ida, in Yoga. The masculine and the feminine within you. Just do this simple sadhana all of you – you can’t do any other yoga, this much you can do, isn’t it? What you do is, something that concerns your life. It could be the Sun coming up.. Sun is coming up – without Sun coming up you wouldn’t exist on this planet, isn’t it? The warmth of life is going on within you, only because the Sun comes up. Without the tree exhaling Oxygen, and you exhaling Carbon Dioxide, and this exchange happening – you wouldn’t be alive, isn’t it? Like this, look at it – the food that you eat, the Sun, the Earth that you walk upon, air that you breathe, water that you drink, people who live around you – whatever. You choose anyone.
Just do this – put your right [hand] and left [hand] together, perfectly
Just do this – put your right and left together, perfectly. Not like this [demo], not like this [demo] – perfectly, ok. Just look at something that really matters to you. Maybe the Sun, maybe the sky, maybe the cloud, maybe a tree, maybe a person, a child, an animal – it doesn’t matter what. Just look at it putting your hands together for 10-12 minutes at a stretch. You will see, half your anxiety will start settling down. Because, essentially conflict is – there are 2 dimensions within you – I don’t want to go into an elaborate description of this, because the yogic physiology goes elaborately into this – but to put it simply, even the modern medical science is telling you, there is a right brain, and a left brain, alright.
Just put these 2 things together. Look at with utmost love and appreciation towards something that matters to you – could be your wife, it could be your husband, a child, a tree, a dog, sky, Sun, Moon – whatever. Every one of them are vital for your life, isn’t it? Isn’t it so? Yes? Whatever you can relate to. Putting these 2 things together, just look at them with utmost pleasantness that you can generate – recognising how important they are for you. Many things will change. This is the first form of Yoga. If I do this [demo], it will become difficult. And, there are many ways to do ‘Namaskar’. Like this [demo], like that [demo], like that [demo]. This is the most simple thing. Start here, ok!